wonderful results

Darrens cancer cells are down to just 4%!! they started at about 99% (not 100% sure as they lost results, but they are goin on how unwell he was when dx), then 39% and now just 4!! Needs to be 0.001 to be in remission but this is still fab news. My darren was so brave having bone marrow taken today, the needle is hugggee.
onwards and upwards.

did she jump or was she pushed!?

I am struggling to hold it together this week. Darren has scan tomorrow night and then bone marrow biopsy and consultant meeting on thursday. Tanisha is back at school and im back to work. Jaz starts new childcare this week in the form of my sister, she has her 2 year check next wek and starts preschool on the 17th. In all honesty, as much as i hate to say this as too prud, we are broke :( I did a carboot this week to just be able to afford food shopping and i dont know what to do until payday on the 26th. Im doing another carboot on saturday and hopo06.efully that will see us though and also selling stuff on ebay. I just cant seem to get ourself out of this hole. And before you ask, the holidays were paid for ages ago and we had food money and that was pretty much it and the reason we spent a lot of time on beach (thank goodness it was nice and sunny). Benifits are being very slow in decided what they will give us/ if anything at all.

I just know how i will get though this week, im tearful and stressed and trying so hard to be normal. So many people tell me how brave and how well i handle this, and while i know they are trying to be nice, it does make me feel as if it would be a bad thing to fall apart :( that it would be failure on my part.

wish us luck and please think about us in prayers this week, im thinking this week it might be needed.