Chicken pox!! aggrrr

Well I went to work today, and had some intresting things going on, but atleast I was busy. :)
Darren's Macmillian nurse called to say she had just picked up meesage from Friday and was checking we were ok. Well yes his on anti Bs now, but has dickie tum. However while out with the girls today, he was exposed to some little kids with chicken pox!! So now he has to have a round of anti virols, as its a hope it will stop him developing chicken poxs, which would be so dangerous for him.
Why take your child out if they still can give it to other!! grr so angry.

Darrens feeling ok ish, but coughing up but will keep an eye on him.
Im torn between going with Darren for his appointment on mOnday and work.Im hoping to go with him and if its running ontime, will be fine, if its late, well I will have to leave him there at the hospital.

I think since starting Chemo he is looking so much better, dont you?

normal?? whats that again??

Well after my outburst on Friday, I reliased it may well have been down to PMT LOL.
Yesterday was lovely, I got loads done in the girls room and Darren got to take the girls to the park :)
I got to spend some nice mum and daughter time with Tanisha as we went to the cinema in the morning with Tanisha's friend Lauren and her mum Gemma. Was a lovely morning.
Today was not so great. Darren is feeling tired, and coughing loads. His started to get an upset tummy too, which I think is down to the drugs but said we will call the nurse in the morning if no better. Its just so weird how little things can really make you worry. Before Darren got cancer, him having a cold and bit of a dicky tum, would have me moaning about man flu, now I worry about him.

I have to go back to work tomorrow, Im looking forward to getting back to some sort of routine, although Darrens not back at work till next week.

Im fed up of hospitals though. I have another 2 appointments for me though this week, neither of which Im looking forward to, BUT if we can deal with cancer we can deal with anything else.
Tanisha is back at school on Tuesday, which will be nice. She s a bright one and loves school. Although has been so nice to have some family time, although wish it was for different reasons.

I know sometimes this blog is very "woe is me", but i find it really helps. Im not like that when you meet me, Im pretyt upbeat most of time, but is lovely to write it here, and saves me losing too many friends from being a depressing moo.

hugs to all that need them right now, prayers for all those who are battling cancer, or their families. xx

I want off!!

Today sucked.
Darrens been coughing up green stuff, feeling hot and sweating loads at night. I called Macmillian nurse, she didnt call back, called the GP, no appointments so I called the cancer ward and was advised to take him to A&E. I called my mum to come and watch the kids, she wouldnt come, said Darren should take himself there. Called my sister, Maria who came over.
Arrive at A&E, wait an hour to be seen by the nurse, whilst trying to aviod standing too close to anyone who seemed unwell. Nurse called GP, who magicly had an appointment.
Got home and made the girls dinner, they had played me up most of the day to be honest and i hadnt got half as much done in the house as i needed.
Darren calls after seeing the doctor, to tell me he has a prescribtion for anti biotics but that also his friend is coming over earlier and will be here about 6.30pm.
Darren arrives home but tells me he had to pay for prescribtion as his not got has exsemtion card yet (all cancer people get free prescribtions).
Kids into PJs, me running round like a blue arsed fly trying to tidying up before friend gets here.

To be honest i cried whilst giving girls their tea, i felt like getting up and walking out, just walking, just to clear my head, but no chance i could have. I just wanted my bed.

I know people want to pop by and see how we are, but i wish people would call, i hate being surprised but people at my door. Im rarely not busy, my house always looks like a mess when people arrive. all it takes is one call to see if now is a good time!

enjoying the peace

I havent posted since Friday as there really isnt anything to report, well small bits i guess.

We have had some nice weather so been out to a few parks, had 2 picnics and seen some family. Its been so nice to spend some family time together, although I wish we had this time for different reasons.
Darrens been harping on about getting back to the gym. I told him I dont think its best, I feel he should get himself well again (remission) being he thinks about that and the macmillian nurse agree's. I find myself getting so angry that all his worried about is losing muscle over getting well. But I guess its like when people lose their hair though chemo or bloat, its another thing about you thats different that you have no control over. I think he doesnt want to let go of the controls yet
:(
Darrens had a sore throat for a few days that we have to keep an eye on, and i have noticed his been quite tired the last few days to. His needed to go back to bed during he day again.
Darren has got my hunger back ten fold. Before he was diagnosised he wasnt eating as much and we now know thats because his spleen was so huge that it was pressing on his stomach. Now the spleen is smaller he is eating us out of house and home!! I guess his body is working hard to fight the cancer so i cant complain if he needs a few extra fats things :)

Thats pretty much our week so far. We are going to the farm tomorrow, cant wait! Im not sure who's more excited Darrren or the girls.

Well life does go on

Well not a huge amount to report here. I went into work yesterday and spent sometimes with the families I work with. I was so busy it was lovely. I can home to a huge headache so had to go and lay down when I got home.
I also got to go to a dinner party with the girls from work, it was such a laugh and the food was lovely too.
Today I have spent the whole day trying to straightner the house out. We were in the middle of decrorating the house when Darren was diagnosised, so it was upside down for the last 4 weeks.
Im seeling like mad on ebay at the moment to make some extra cash, as we really are struggling this week. I know people say Cancer can affect your bank but i didnt really believe it. Its all the extra's, carpark, food out, having someone at home all day, petrol and extra cleaning stuff. To be honest money was the last thing on my mind when Darren was in hospital and after and its my fault for not keeping better track of it, but doesnt stop the stress :( Oh well 2 more weeks to payday.

Well we are at my sisters tomorrow and my mums on sunday so hoping some family time will cheer me up.